A Month Later…
April 4, 2006I stopped blogging for a month.
I just wanted to know if I’ll be able to make it without blogging. The answer was pretty much clear.
Yes.
Although, I was writing in my journals quite a lot (hmm…future blog posts).
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I was involved in a quick stint as a problogger. I have to admit that it was pretty hard. One lesson I learned:
HAVE YOUR OWN PC/Mac
Yes, I don’t own a computer, I do all my blogging at the office. Yeah, me bad. Naughty even. Heh.
The problem with what happened was that I needed to do my researching and work at the same time. I find it hard to do with my boss breathing down my back all the time. Although, I wanted to TRULY blog for them, I had to stop. I didn’t want to get fired yet.
I’m sorry.
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Things have been changing around me lately as well.
I’m a Training Specialist now. That means, the load is a bit lighter. Unlike the old times where I do the recruiting, 201 File/updating/managing, AND training. I don’t know how this will affect my blogging though.
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Fuck, I miss blogging.
I missed all my blog friends as well. I still comment on some of them, but not as much as I used to.
I’m thinking of getting my own domain.
http://www.theaccidentaltaorist.com
ahh….like the sound of that one!
Yeah! I’m planning to use wordpress on that one as well. Just need a little more dough to go for it. I’m choosing host sites as of the moment. This will be my last (and most expensive) jump.
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I’m glad that even though a month has passed. People still come by to see my blog. I really am touched.
Thanks guys!
Some Quick and Easy Steps to Disassemble Yourself for the Better Last Part
February 3, 2006Don’t believe a word I write.
“If you see Buddha on the Road, kill him.”
I’m not here to save the world. I didn’t come here to die for everyone’s sins. I just represent a part of the collective consciousness in the blogosphere.
Make your own path. The old, trodden paths maybe mixed with the present to make it a new road! No one can honestly say that the past was better than the present and vice versa. The future is borne from the marriage of both. Still, this is your road, not mine.
I just hope we both get to where we’re going.
Dreaming of a Geek Tragedy
February 2, 2006I wished for a tragic life. One full of illegal pleasures. Drugs, alcohol, and fucking around. Cigs never even crossed my mind because it was too common. A legal killer. Ganja was just stronger cigs.
Metamphetamine. Speed. Downers. Uppers. Fuck, I wanted to go through the whole gamut until I ended up in the freaking nuthouse. I wanted to drink myself until my liver gave way. Let alcohol run through my veins. Fucking and screwing 2 to 5 girls at once. Domintrix and slave. The Jesus & Mary Chain lifestyle.
Okay, why the hell would I want such a shitty life? One where I would end up either in jail or a morgue? I wanted to suffer. I believed that to find enlightenment, I had to go through hell first. Go through fire. Get burned. Come out motherfucking golden. To most, it sounded stupid, but for me–it was my creed. (more…)
Some Quick and Easy Steps to Disassemble Yourself for the Better Part 3
February 1, 2006What the hell are you doing here?
You must’ve asked this question quite a lot of times all ready. The answer? You get nothing. N-O-T-H-I-N-G. “Give it up,” as Kafka said. The answer will appear if you ask the right question.
Yup, most of us got it all wrong. Why must we continually ask our family/president/world/God/the universe/fate what our role in this world is? As Frankl put it,
“Ultimately man should not ask what the meaning of life is, but rather must recognize that it is HE who is asked. In a word, eaach man is questioned by life; and he can only answer to life by answering for his own life; to life he can only respond by being responsible.”
Execute the plan.
Stop whining, get off your ass, and do SOMETHING positive for someone else. Open a door for somebody. Share a freaking seat. Get the fuck up and GIVE your seat. Smile! Do something for someone who can’t pay you back.
Give back to the freaking universe for crissakes. Enough of the “What’s In It For Me” syndrome. That’s a paradigm on it’s last knees. Things are about to change.
Maintain yourself. Don’t fall off the wagan, idiot! It’ll be twice as hard to get back up with each fall. Continue with your “good” works.
Some Quick and Easy Steps to Disassemble Yourself for the Better Part 2
January 31, 2006Find the good things about yourself.
You’re not ALL bad. Even Lucifer was an angel once. Accept that part of you as well. What good things have you done for others lately? For yourself? Write them down. Put them in a list. Do this everyday.
Some of you may be wondering why I placed this in the middle and not at the top. Because thisone is easier to swallow. Always get on with the hard stuff first, then the easier ones will be a sinch.
Accept the saint and the sinner.
Yeah, you’re both. Stupid.
Armed with this knowledge, and hopefully a new found attitude about yourself, your next step is to do something about it.
Some Quick and Easy Steps to Disassemble Yourself for the Better Part 1
January 30, 2006See yourself for the scum that you are.
Take a big look at yourself on the mirror, then turn off the lights. The image reflected is pretty much useless. What you see there is an illusion. You won’t be needing your eyes for this one anyway.
Accept that you have your faults and hypocrises.
Write them all down. There’s no such thing as an underdog. There never truly was.
Bloggers and Liars
January 28, 2006When you lie, you fry.
As writers/bloggers do we have the freedom to lie to our readers? I mean, there’s no way in hell they’re going to know whether we’re telling the truth or not, right? Fuck ‘em.
Yes, we can lie to our readers. Sheesh, heck, we can even lie to OURSELVES. You know you’re screwing with people’s hopes and minds. Making them feel that someone ACTUALLY understands and relates with what they’ve gone through. But deep down inside you know you’re a rotten son of a bitch. Even a dense motherfucker knows THAT.
Blogging/writing the truth feels great, especially if you get quite a lot of comments. It’s like your life is validated as “interesting”. LOLZ! It somehow boosts your ego that they connect with you. Fuck! That’s a high of Freudian design!
Although the choice is yours. When the shit hits the proverbial fan, you’ll be the first one with a mouthful of it. tag: blogging, lying
Time Travelling to Different Time Zones
January 27, 2006
“Change is the law of life. And those who look only to the past or present are certain to miss the future.”
John F. Kennedy
I used to be a young, self-righteous, close-minded jerk. Now I’m a middle-aged self-righteous, close-minded jerk. I thought I changed for the better. I felt that I was above what I thought was morally wrong. I am more ethically right. More open-minded. No. I am SO not that. I seem have a love-hate relationship with myself.
Destroy/Save the World By Being Me
January 25, 2006“Be not angry that you cannot make others as you wish them to be, since you cannot make yourself as you wish to be.”
Who the fuck am I to tell others how they should be? How they should live, eat, breath, treat, and screw other prople.
I have done my share of righteous indignation, I was blind to my own limitations and stupidity. Other people had to adjust to MY needs. They had to change. There’s so many things these people should work at. If they did, the world would spin peacefully.
MY world.
Inside MY head.
It’s time to look at myself. Rush back the camera. Re-focus on something else. ME. See the holes in my soul. Darkness in my heart. The dirt in my mind. The infection in my skin. The inapprorpiate size of my body parts.
I need to accept people as they are. They all seem to be screwed up and wrong at the same time. But so am I! I’ve just been as fucked up and confused as THEY are. They and I have some differences, yes. But we also have quite a lot of similarities.
I shouldn’t be angry why people can’t change for the better, but be angry why I can’t.
Fuck me.
Letters From the Dalai Lama
January 20, 2006
Note: I’ve been reading The Art of Hapiness at Work by the Dalai Lama and H. Cutler. I will be posting some reflections/”AHA!” moments here for the next few days.
“So when these challenges come, you should welcome them, embrace them willingly, and see them as a way to develop yourself, to prosper, to ultimately achieve a greater sense of well being and hapiness. Challenges can have this positive purpose, this benefit.”
His Holiness the Dalai Lama
My Master challenged me the other day. She wanted me to do things that I thought was impossible. Reluctantly, I agreed to her wishes. At first, I was pretty much fuming at the seams. Then I read the quote above.
